Her Master's Redemption by Lily White

Author:Lily White [White, Lily]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: Abuse, Adult, BDSM, Dark, Erotica, Fiction, Romance, Sexuality, Sociology
Amazon: B075BS528J
Published: 2017-09-06T23:00:00+00:00

CHAPTER NINETEEN

SERAPHINA

Being alone is a numbing experience. It's a moment that cradles you in naked, raw introspection. It's a time where thoughts are released to fly freely, for their voices to whisper in your ear about the nightmares you endured, about the battles you lost, and about the truth beneath all the public facades you'd donned in order to appear like you had your shit together.

I've lied to many people in my life. My family never knew I was sexually active at twelve. They didn't know I'd started abusing hard drugs by the same age. They had no clue I was never home late at night when I should have been tucked away, safe beneath the warmth of my bedroom covers. As far as they were concerned, I was an emotionally challenged girl, one who needed time in hospitals and therapy with multiple shrinks, but they never knew exactly why.

Not that they truly cared. My mother only wanted the perfect daughter to make her new husband and friends believe she was a perfect woman. So instead of simply asking me why I was the way I was, she shoved me off on someone else - forgot about me while she hid me away.

Needless to say, it didn't work. I kept abusing my body. I kept abusing drugs. But it was during those times when I was locked up for my own good that I discovered how awful it was to be alone.

A person can lie to other people all day long without the fact being revealed that, in truth, they feel scared and abandoned inside. They can fight and they can rage just to pretend they're stronger than they really are.

But the one thing a person can't do is lie to themself, at least not in the long term - and that is who you are left with when alone.

I've spent more time alone than any one person should have to be in their lifetime. I've spent that time in hospitals. I've spent that time in dark rooms. I've spent it in chains and I've spent it in pits dug deep inside the ground. And in all those places, I had no one to talk to but myself.

However, beyond all those times, those experiences, those moments when I was left to stare unblinking at a woman who had failed in life more times than I'd like to admit, there wasn't a more harrowing time for introspection than the hours I spent alone after Anthony left the playroom.

How stupid had I been to drop my guard? To believe that I saw in him something I kept buried down deep in myself? He wasn't any different than Aiden or any of the men who'd abused me. He still locked me in this place. He still bound me to this chair and left me here to sit and stew while he ran off to see to his guests. He didn't care that I was naked and helpless, that at any time, one of those guests could walk in and hurt me in ways I'd been hurt a million times before.

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